The end

So this is it, the end of everything. I know you will never forgive me for the things that I've done and you will never understand why I did it, but by letting it all out is how I know you're moving on. It doesn't matter how bad it reflects on me or whatsoever, at least by venting your anger on me it lets you continue with what you have path your life out to be. 

Here are the words I have never had the chance to say and to further prove your point:

It is entirely my fault, yes I have betrayed your trust in every single way. You're not to blame cause you have done nothing wrong in the entire 6 and a half years of our journey. Thank you for showering me with ultimate love and care from the bottom of your heart, I'm sorry for not being able to appreciate it.

Thank you for going thru everything with me, whether happy, sad, torturous... Please know that I treasure every single one of our memories together and that they will be deeply etched in my heart/mind forever. I know for the fact that nothing will be able to replace everything that we shared for the past 6 and a half years. No matter what comes along in the future, you will always be my first love, now and forever. 

I have always love you. 

Thank you for everything, for being part of my life and giving me wonderful memories.

I wish you all the best in every single thing you do. And I know you deserve better, so despite me not being the right girl in your life, I hope you do find your happiness.

And as long as you're happy, I am too. 

I'm sorry for bringing you so much pain, for breaking promises, for everything.

I know all these won't make a difference but I just thought you should know anyway, if you ever happened to read. 

So probably for the last time in my life: " I love you, Lihan, I really do."