It's coming to the end of my first ever semester in University. I can say that throughout this entire period, it has been overwhelming, different, unpredictable, memorable, painful, unbearable, amazing, incredible but most importantly - an experience. 

I think this is the only period of my life in which so many events and decisions has occured at an entire go. I look at things in a whole new different perspective, things I once believed in was no longer held true. I discovered a whole new personality of myself that I always knew was within me but has never believed it really existed. I made huge first time decisions that would change every part of my life, and discovered the courage that I never knew I had. I know about the bigger things I want from my life, convinced myself that life isn't about living for others but for yourself. I realized how much I have actually changed throughout this entire experience. And most importantly, I realized what I had been believing in did exist.

 With this experience I have also realized, the things that were so much part of my life seems blurry now, I no longer know how to differentiate between real and not. I lost the true meaning of love, the one that I have always believed in when I was a little girl.

Exams haven't been a breeze like last time where I walk in confident and walk out knowing how many marks I've lost. Probably cause I'm not putting that much effort in studying and memorizing, maybe I'll pay the consequences but I know I didn't exactly put in my all. Maybe I can find that motivation back but for now, I just wanna get through my 3 papers and get done with it so

I CAN GO TO PARISSSSSSSSS <3

I'm happy no matter what grades I get, and despite all these happenings, I enjoy what my life is like now. I feel like myself again, kinda :)